Nobody knows (poem)

 Nobody knows the depth of despair I feel inside, 

They wouldn’t understand so it’s easier to hide,

Many days I wish, my life would just end,

I have lost my career, my activity & have few friends, 

At every turn I’m unable to get proper medical care,

I’m tired of trying & don’t want to go anywhere. 

I have no faith in doctors anymore at all,

A dentist ruined my face & I’m angry & appalled, 

The Mother of death appeals to me so,

Santa Muerte is with me everywhere I go,

Seems nothing goes right these days, I only feel sadness,

Wishing my time were up so I could leave this madness. 

I’m alone in my room most days & spend nights wide awake,

Frustrated with my health & the despair I can’t shake,

I feel so irritated & my cynical views have grown strong,

I either don’t trust, don’t believe or just think everyone is wrong,

I try to enjoy small things & make the best of it,

Since I got sick, my life has become nothing but shit 😞.

(Aug 2024)