Waiting for my sibling DNA results

 I found out about this when I was about 12 years old because I needed to use my birth certificate for some project in school & when I asked my mom who that was listed, I got a story that at the time seemed logical, so I left it alone, and as a kid what was I gonna do? As time went on it bothered me and I tried to distance myself from that name & did by getting married young then changing my name to that name when it didn't work out, as well as my child, so at least I got rid of the last name, but it never solved the issue of the wrong man being on there.

  My dad who raised me never married my mom so I think he just thought I had her last name, I don't think he ever knew about this because he would have probably reacted violently towards her if he knew or maybe he did know & thats why he was that way for so many years with her, I don't know. I know asking for a DNA test to change it while he was alive wasn't an option because I feared he would hurt my mom. By the time he was too old to hurt her after his stroke & he was living with me , then I could have done it but the thought that if it came back that he wasn't my dad & she lied about that too would have broke his heart, so I couldn't do that to him, so I didn't do it then either. 

I just focused on spending the last few years with him since she left him after his stroke, it was just me & my dad. I didn't think about it again until I had to pull out my birth certificate for my passport & it all came up again, & I decided I can't die with this imposter on there! This must be fixed! So I'm in the process now, a court angle to remove and also doing a sibling DNA with a half sister who lives on the east coast that I only met once. 

  It's the most stressful thing I've ever done & I'm very nervous because I'm scared that there could be more lies or secrets in my family & I would be very angry if that were the case. My dad is my dad, even if this sibling DNA doesn't match & she is my sister, that won't change but the dagger that's already been stuck in my heart by my mom will just go a little deeper if that happens. 

  Time will tell, all I can do now is wait. We have sent in the samples so its 6-8 weeks they say on ancestry, plus a week for matches, then we should know 🤞🙏.

Me & my sister bettye 👇