I have lost both of my parents now & my only son stopped talking to me cause I was in his face about his attitude & lack of responsibility after his daughter was attacked by one of the wolf dogs he was breeding, she lost her arm at the age of 4, just a baby. I feel bad my grandkids lost contact with a grandma but I don't regret being honest about the situation, & if he never speaks to me again before I die, I'm okay with it. We raise our kids the best we can & hope they turn out ok, but in the end, responsibility is important & if he never truly accepts it, so be it, I'm done.
My girls are my comfort these days, I may not agree with my oldest one's choice for a guy but I'm there for whatever may come up & she knows it. Besides him letting them almost become homeless he had nerve to raise his voice at me, so not cool. Years later, instead of being grateful for me helping my daughter buy a house, with me as cosigner, this bastard didn't even have the decency to express condolences when my mom died and I came to their house for my granddaughters birthday, (a week after my mom died.) My mom being my daughter's grandma. That kind of disrespect cannot & will not be forgiven. One day hopefully she finds a decent man who actually is worthy to be her mate.
My youngest is struggling to find her path in life & is still at home but in reality it's a blessing she's with me cause I would be freaking out if she lived somewhere else anyway. I just hope she finds her way soon & can manage when I'm gone.
I did accomplish the one goal important to me all my life, getting my dad listed on my birth certificate 🙏💜, he's finally where he belongs & I'm carrying his last name now as my middle name, I'm content with that situation now at age 55.
When I'm gone, I hope my kids will remember everything we went through & why, & also that I never gave up trying to provide them a good life. It took a while but we were finally okay. I hope they talk about me to my grandkids & help them to know they come from strength, determination and strong will. They can achieve anything in this world if they are willing to work hard, that's how I want them to remember me when I'm gone.
